Kinda sucks, with the scanner down and everything going on, it's been getting me very depressed. Yeah and worst of all......no candy on Halloween D= XP that bites the worst, we weren't even allowed to buy ourself a bag of candy T^T guess it's kinda good cause wouldn't want a dentist visit X( still sad also that my precious one hasn't spoken to me in so long. With school and having no computer to speak to me through, I only get 1 e-mail from him from him from the library or a pals house once or twice a month......kinda makes me depressed with the fact that he promised me it wouldn't be this way anymore......it's been months since the two of us have even had a date together....it's horrible....my pain wont go away....my eyes burn, my chest hurts, I run out of breath so easily....it's childish to cry....and yet I've been crying every night since a few months ago.....and....I can tell....many promises will be broken to me.....it just all depends upon what day and time....it's kinda sad....I try my hardest to pull my friends out of the dark and into the light only to be dragged in on my own....I fear someday I may fall in so deep that no one will be able to pull me out. My brain is racking in 2, I know there is a long way to go until summer vacation, but even still......I just feel like something terrible is about to occur, because my nightmares just wont stop.